Contentment // Peony Project

I am so happy that the Peony Project’s word of the month for February is Contentment.

This has always, always been an issue in my life, and I have written on it many times:
May 2013–I was jealous of all my friends moving on with their adult lives
March 2014–I had trouble focusing and enjoying the little things in life
June 2014–I was losing faith in the Lord’s timing with all the trials we had last year

Contentment is my weakness, but also at the same time, my strength. Odd how that works out.
I was very content with my childhood–I was given so much and had great opportunities.
I am very content (more than content) with my religion–I’ve never doubted.
I was very content (more than content) with my choice of a husband–he is all that I needed and more.
I was very content (more than content) with my wedding–it was simple and yet, the wedding of my dreams.
I am very content with my baby boy–he is a blessing in our lives.
I am can be very content in my lifestyle….

And see, that’s where the weakness comes in. Yes, I’m happy living frugally. Yes, I have a beautiful townhome we rent. Yes, we have no debt (except for a car). Yes, we have everything we need and more and aren’t lacking or needing anything. Yes, I’m happy with the clothes, accessories, makesup, etc. that I have.

But…

Then I see that my friends have bought a house. I would love to own a home, but it’s not financially time for that yet.
Then  I see that my friends are pregnant again. I would love to have more kids, but Rhys is only 7 months.
Then I see that my friend’s husband has a job making 70K. I would love to have that, but together, Justin and I still don’t make that.
Then I see that my friends are becoming SAHMs and have opened businesses. I would love to have that (and will have the SAHM part), but I don’t have the skills to open a shop, and our income will lower.
Then I see that my friends and spouses are traveling all over the country and all over the world. I would love to have that, but it’s not financially realistic right now.
Then I see that my friends blogs are exploding with popularity. I would love that and I’m trying to balance growing and authenticity.

So, as you can see, the green monster has a good grasp on me. But, what helps me is to count my blessings–I have made many a blessing/grateful heart/drop of awesome list when I feel like discontentment is taking me over. I also pray for the Lord’s strength and help. I have to remember this scripture:

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord. (Isaiah 55:8 King James Version)

Being content means understanding this. Being content means counting your many blessings. Being content is trusting in the Lord. Being content means enjoying the little things. Being content means retaining hope, while being happy now.
I know I still have a lot of work at being content, but I’m trying, and that’s all that can be expected of me.

Tayler is a work at home mom. She does free lance articles and dabbles in graphic design and virtual assisting for bloggers. She spent 3 years as a history and English teacher. Her passions are her husband, two children, history, reading, nature, and her Savior, Jesus Christ.
  • You will get better at feeling content. It's hard when everyone is doing something different than you are and they seem like they are so far ahead, but you'll make it through! Happiness will find you. I've found that I'm all jealous over my peers all finishing college and starting their careers. I just have to keep reminding myself that it will all come in good time. maybe that will help you.

  • Great post Tayler!! I feel really content currently even though we don't have much. My jealousy pops up when people travel a lot, during this season of my life we won't be traveling anywhere outside of well driving distances basically…. but there will be time for that, there will be time for all of it!

  • Oh, I know it will. Sometimes it's still hard to delay gratification. But, I'm better than I was before!

  • That's when I'm jealous a lot too! I love traveling.

  • Tayler I absolutely love this post. I feel the same way when I see my friends living in gorgeous homes or traveling everywhere! I know I will be able to do it eventually but I want it now. Haha.

  • Christine

    I love this. I struggle with these things too, and it's nice to hear that someone else does! It makes me feel less losery, ha ha. My biggest envy is people who don't have any student loans, so I hope you never take that for granted! It is such a HUGE blessing. My husband and I are completely buried by ours. :-/ We're trying to get out, but it's going to take forever. And you can also be glad that you don't have to worry about envy on unchangeable things…you can get a house someday, you can travel someday, etc., but you can never switch husbands. At least you're happy with that choice! I've always thought that would be the WORST regret, because you can't do much about it. So when I'm feeling down about what I don't have, I remind myself that I least I have a great husband!

  • That's the hardest part–delaying gratification and realizing that there is time and season for everything.

  • We are just very lucky that we went to BYU–the university owned by the LDS Church. We are both Mormon, so we had inexpensive tuition.