On Sunday, during Relief Society (one hour meeting of all the women in the congregation during church teaching each other on preparedness, motherhood, wifehood, service, and the how the Gospel relates to us) we were talking about using the scriptures to support us in times of need, sorrow, inadequacies, fear, etc. One girl brought up an article she had read. So, we all pull out our smartphones (which were already out with the LDS scriptures app) and looked up this article.
It’s called “Drops of Awesome.”
“Have you ever said any of these things: ‘Well, I guess I don’t work out anymore,’ because you missed one workout? Or, ‘I always fight with my brother. Our relationship is broken.’ What about, ‘I’m kind of a nag to my spouse.’ Or ‘I gossip and I always end up hurting people I love.’ ‘I can’t stop spending money. We will never get out of debt.’ ‘My house is always a disaster.'”
I definitely have and I am sure you have as well. If you have ever said any of these things, this article is for you. In it, Kathryn talks about how after doing something great or memorable, or some sort of service, she feels great for a few moments, than starts doubting herself. Her thoughts betray her, asking why she didn’t do that yesterday? When was the last time she did this? She certainly didn’t say that the other day. Thus, her good feeling disappears into a sea of inadequacy.
I have this problem, and I am sure many of you do too. It reminds me of the post I wrote about comparison and being content. Comparison is a root of evil. Comparing yourself to others is very harmful. It causes your happiness to disappear because you are always trying to play catch up with others and always coveting what you can’t get/have/do/make/be. But, comparison doesn’t always have to do with others. As Kathryn mentions in her post, you can compare yourself with yourself. That is where the inadequacy comes from. For instance, I like journaling. I used to be very good at it–journaling at least once a day. Justin bought me a journal for Christmas and I’ve written in it maybe 10 times. I’m not a journaler. But, yesterday I wrote in it. I wrote a post today. Blogs are a form of journaling. Another example: sometimes I feel I snap at Justin for little things. I can feel that I’m not being a good, kind, patient wife. But, there are times that I hold my tongue and smile, or take a deep breath before speaking.
Because of this self-comparison leading to feelings of inadequacy, Kathryn came up with the idea of “Drops of Awesome.” “Every time you do something good, something kind, something productive, its a drop in your Bucket of Awesome. You don’t lose drops for every misstep. You can only build. You can only fill.”
This is a wonderful concept. It keeps you with a positive mindset: “I may not have run all last week, but yesterday I did as well as 50 curlups!” It reminded me of a page I used to have in my old journal with a similar concept.
Whenever I was feeling down, I’d look back at this page and cheer myself up. Now, I am thinking, I want to have another one of these pages in my current journal, as well as a Drops of Awesome page. As you can see this page definitely wasn’t done daily. But, it still helped. I think that doing so in my new journal, as often or sparse, will help. Every single time. I don’t have to worry about trying to be perfect, because each time I do something right, better, or nice, I know I become happier. The Drops of Awesome article also said, “Our capacity for joy and light increases. And we just keep working, one tiny drop at a time. And we don’t compare today’s drops to yesterday’s or tomorrow’s.”
I thought this article was “AWESOME” and I wanted to share it with you. Give yourself a journal page and write “Drops of Awesome” on the top. Whenever you can, write down your newest drop of awesome and date it. Or, give yourself a fish bowl or pitcher. Put scraps of paper near it. Write your drop of awesome on the scrap and drop it in and see for yourself as your drop level rises, so will your attitude and feelings of yourself. I am definitely going to start this today.