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Trusting in God

My husband is a private person. I am not. If up to me, I’d tell the whole world my entire life story. But, my husband is a bit more decisive on what he likes or wants to share. I know bloggers who are completely transparent about their personal lives. My husband prefers to draw a line in the sand between our personal lives and our blogging lives, and sometimes I like to flirt with that line.  However, I feel this time should be handled differently. And, as much as I’d love to write more for therapy and support, I highly respect my husband. So, all I’m going to say is this:

I’m very sorry I’ve been absent from social media for a while. In the same short time period, we have received some wonderful news for our family as well as some devastating news affecting us directly. Justin prefers to keep quiet about both for now, and I’ll will follow that request.

But, timing is a butt. It truly is.

I know the apostle Paul once said that he “glories in tribulation”, but to be completely honest, I am sick and tired of all the trials Justin and I have been given in our almost 4 years of marriage. We’ve had our fair share, I feel. The worst (before now), was right before Rhys was born…we hadn’t found a place to live yet and Justin hadn’t found a job yet. I wanted to give up having faith that God would provide for us. But, just at my lowest point, God spoke to me and answered my prayer. In a fatherly tone, he then commented, “See, I told you.”

I’m trying really hard to keep that lesson in mind right now. But, even though I want to give it all up, wallow in pity, and say “woe is us, we are destined for a lifetime of disappointments,” there is a small spark of hope left.

Yesterday, while trying to figure out a scripture to post for my #sharegoodness Instagram post, Proverbs 3:5-6 kept coming to my head:

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.

God is trying to teach me the same lesson. I’m afraid of making light of our situation, which should not happen. But, I’m trying my absolute hardest to not doubt. The Lord does have a plan. He will help us. I may not understand when or how or why He is doing it the way He is, but He requires and demands my trust. I want to give Him that trust. Things will work out for the best for our family in the end.

So, if I am not super responsive or present on any social media, or light-hearted and jovial, please be patient with me as Justin and I try to navigate the next few weeks.

Tayler is a work at home mom. She does free lance articles and dabbles in graphic design and virtual assisting for bloggers. She spent 3 years as a history and English teacher. Her passions are her husband, two children, history, reading, nature, and her Savior, Jesus Christ.

Don’t Grow Up Too Fast

As a child, all I wanted to do was to grow up. I had so many plans for my life: college, teaching, becoming a famous author, being a mom, traveling the world, having a movie made based off either my novels or my time as a teacher, become a professor, be on a History channel documentary. I was excited to move out of my parents’ house (how ironic that I’m back in my parents’ house!), to be on my own, to be in charge of my own life. Even though Disney’s Tangled didn’t come out until I was in college, I always echoed the lyric, “When will my life begin.” Well, I was in such a hurry to begin my life that I forgot to live my life.

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Don't grow up too fast. Enjoy your age.

Although I am proud of my accomplishments as a teenager and a college student, sometimes I wonder if I grew up too fast. I focused more on my studies and writing and reading than anything else. Now, that wasn’t a bad thing. I still played sports, I still hung with friends. But, I didn’t take time to stop and smell the roses. I never really embraced the philosophy of Carpe Diem. I also got married very early. Again, that’s not a bad thing. I was 22, finished with college, and ready to be a wife. We’ve had plenty of adventures together as a couple, and spent many hours playing video games with each other.

However, there are sometimes I reminisce about my childhood. Sometimes I miss being a child. Adulting is hard! I yearn for the days of ease, the days of discovery, the days of learning, the days of only being in charge of myself. I love being a mother, I love being a wife, I loved being a teacher. But, sometimes I don’t want to deal with the stress.

Then, I look at my almost-16-year-old sister. She is so stressed about having a 4.o to get into the college of her dreams. She comes straight home from school (which she spends an hour at after for tutoring), and immediately begins on her homework for hours, then practices her flute. Yet, she still spends time with her friends. She still embraces her youth. She goes shopping with them, plans parties with them. Has Gilmore Girls or Downton Abbey marathons with the family. Bakes gourmet desserts on the side. She is my idol. She is still coocky and weird. She dances silly in front of the family and speaks a weird made up language (Er Mer Gerd).

Then, I look at my 20 (almost 21!) month old son. He is growing up right before my eyes. This toddler stage is my absolute favorite stage. It’s so fun. I am in awe as I watch him learn and discover. I want so badly for him to grow up and talk to me. I want so badly for him to grow up and go to school. To learn, to discover, to play, to love, to live. But, I miss my little baby boy that he no longer is. He already is growing up too fast.

I guess what I’m trying to get at is to slow down in your life. Enjoy your current stage. Don’t be in rush be in a rush to begin a new chapter. It’ll come when it comes. That is one of my goals this year: bloom where I am planted–that not only means where I am physically, but also in life. Enjoy this season. Get the most out of it. I am only 26. I only have one child. I have no job to worry about right now (intentionally). I don’t need to grow up quickly right now.

 

Tayler is a work at home mom. She does free lance articles and dabbles in graphic design and virtual assisting for bloggers. She spent 3 years as a history and English teacher. Her passions are her husband, two children, history, reading, nature, and her Savior, Jesus Christ.