My husband is a private person. I am not. If up to me, I’d tell the whole world my entire life story. But, my husband is a bit more decisive on what he likes or wants to share. I know bloggers who are completely transparent about their personal lives. My husband prefers to draw a line in the sand between our personal lives and our blogging lives, and sometimes I like to flirt with that line. However, I feel this time should be handled differently. And, as much as I’d love to write more for therapy and support, I highly respect my husband. So, all I’m going to say is this:
I’m very sorry I’ve been absent from social media for a while. In the same short time period, we have received some wonderful news for our family as well as some devastating news affecting us directly. Justin prefers to keep quiet about both for now, and I’ll will follow that request.
But, timing is a butt. It truly is.
I know the apostle Paul once said that he “glories in tribulation”, but to be completely honest, I am sick and tired of all the trials Justin and I have been given in our almost 4 years of marriage. We’ve had our fair share, I feel. The worst (before now), was right before Rhys was born…we hadn’t found a place to live yet and Justin hadn’t found a job yet. I wanted to give up having faith that God would provide for us. But, just at my lowest point, God spoke to me and answered my prayer. In a fatherly tone, he then commented, “See, I told you.”
I’m trying really hard to keep that lesson in mind right now. But, even though I want to give it all up, wallow in pity, and say “woe is us, we are destined for a lifetime of disappointments,” there is a small spark of hope left.
Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
God is trying to teach me the same lesson. I’m afraid of making light of our situation, which should not happen. But, I’m trying my absolute hardest to not doubt. The Lord does have a plan. He will help us. I may not understand when or how or why He is doing it the way He is, but He requires and demands my trust. I want to give Him that trust. Things will work out for the best for our family in the end.
So, if I am not super responsive or present on any social media, or light-hearted and jovial, please be patient with me as Justin and I try to navigate the next few weeks.