Early in the school year (October) we found out I was pregnant. It was one of the happiest days of my life! I was going to be a mom! I would have both a year of history and a year of English under my belt. I would be a SAHM, Justin would graduate in June, and we’d be a happy, adult family.
But, the more I worked at my charter school, the more and more I felt like I couldn’t leave teaching, at least not yet. What a change! In all 24 years of my life, never did I consider working as a mom, not in any degree. It through me for a loop. I wanted to stay at home, but I also still wanted to teach. This terrible decision loomed over me and I had no idea what to do.
Then came the stress of Justin finding a job. He walks in two and half weeks and finishes all his courses in June and still doesn’t have an offer. I thought we would by now and know where we would be living come the fall. Nope. So, the past couple of months, a new thought has been entering my mind: what if I have to continue to be the bread winner? I don’t want to do that. I want the option of wanting to work, not needing to work.
I would talk to my teacher friends, my pregnant friends. I read blogs. I discussed plans with my husband, spilled my mind and heart to family and God. Then, a thought came to mind. I don’t know where we will end up come the summer. We still don’t know about jobs for Justin (keep us in your prayers) so that gives us a few options. There are a few part-time teachers at my charter school because they are moms as well. My principal has personally asked for me to stay–which means she wants me here at this school.
So, here are our plans:
If Justin gets a job somewhere in Utah, we will move up closer to my charter school. I will work part-time (only 3 out of 7 periods) for the next 4 years. That way, I can be home with Rhys and not miss any of his milestones. But, I don’t have to leave teaching either. And in the next 4 years, I can get my Level II teaching license, which will make me more wanted as a teacher, more hireable, and raise my pay.
If Justin gets a job somewhere other than Utah, we will move and I won’t bother trying to apply to work anywhere. I will be a SAHM, but will apply to the nearest university and begin slowly working on getting a Masters and a PhD.
This way, one way or another, I am fulfilling my duty (but more importantly, my wish) of being a mother at home and also improving myself. I feel confident about it. I never actually prayed about this decision, but I still feel at peace about it, as if God helped me make the decision. It is definitely different than what I envisioned my adult life would be like. But, I love teaching. I always knew I would, but I never thought I’d have this strong of a pull to continue to do so. I didn’t know it’d be this hard to break away once I fulfilled another life-long dream of having children.This way, I can keep both dreams alive. I don’t have to give anything up.
I am very grateful to my school for allowing me the opportunity to return part-time next year, if we stay in Utah. And I’m very grateful to have the opportunity to begin my next chapter in life–being a mom.
If you are already a mom, what was your decision: SAHM, part-time working, or full-time working. How did you come to that decision. If you are pregnant or planning to have kids, what is your plan?
I am linking up with Bonnie from The Life of Bon and Brooke from Silver Linings for this linkup. Please join and tell us your thoughts and feelings. Also, feel free to enter the giveaway for a $15 giftcard to Babies R Us!