I love teaching. I love creating lesson plans (although I don’t like the time it takes to create a good lesson plan), I love learning as I teach, I love getting to know my students, and I love getting paid to talk about things I like.
However, I am not returning to teach next year. There are a few reasons why:
1) I want to be a SAHM.
That was actually the original plan–as soon as I had a baby, I was going to stay at home. However, for some reason, last May, I had a feeling that I should work part-time. I thought it was my passion for teaching driving me to continue (which I believe was a real reason), but now I believe that it was God working in mysterious ways as Justin didn’t get a job until mid-October, and we needed income! But, I miss my boy the 5 hours in the middle of the day that I am gone. Thankfully, my babysitters have kept me ignorant to if he hit milestones before I saw them. For that, I am glad. But, as he is getting close to being a toddler, I want to be there for him more..his first real steps, his first words, teaching him his numbers, letters, shapes, colors, etc. I want to have fun mornings in the park, afternoon bike rides, play group dates. I want to be home with my son.
2) It will be good for my mental health.
I haven’t felt completely there in the past two school years. Last year I was teaching at a new school with a new subject, and pregnant! This year, I’ve had to balance work with motherhood. I’ve suffered mild pre-natal and postpartum depression. I’ve been super hormonal, super stressed and anxious. I’ve been short with my students, my husband, my family, myself, and even little Rhys. I’ve lost interest in hobbies sometimes. I haven’t given my all to Rhys or Justin. That isn’t fair. That isn’t good for my mental health. By staying home, I can recover and recuperate. I don’t have to stress or worry about lesson plans or being gone half the day or finding a babysitter or still being upset at misbehaving children and nervous to have a sub try to handle them. I can give 100% to me. And by doing so, I can give 100% to Justin and Rhys.
3) I can have time for hobbies!
Now, I’ve heard both ways that SAHMs do and definitely don’t have time for their own hobbies. Well, I’ll consider it this way–I’ll have 5 hours given back to me, I’ll have Rhys’s two nap times back (I leave a little after he begins his morning nap and get back right after he wakes up from his afternoon nap), and I won’t have to worry about going to bed at a decent time (if I wanted to stay up) because I could nap while Rhys naps.
I have three and a half weeks left of teaching indefinitely. I don’t know when I’ll go back. Eventually, I’d like to, as I love teaching. Because of this, each Wednesday until my last day of school (June 3rd), I’m going to talk a little about teaching and my decision to stay at home: