I am like my father and his father before him:
Free-time is the death of us.
Case and point, my grandpa is a retired farmer. But he is by no means retired. He now takes old farming equipment, messes with it, and then sells it at auction. During his birthday party two years ago, after he was done eating, he left the group of family, went out to his shed, and got to work on some project.
My dad loves having projects–things to fix or improve. When he was stationed in Barstow, California, he became obsessed with geo-caching and that ate up his weekend. Now that he is “retired” (from the Marine Corps, but not from being a lawyer), and is in Utah, he has a yard. So, every time we go to visit, he is working in the yard.
I have had a job since I was sixteen. I have always participated in extra-curricular activities. I have always been a busy, studious student. I work well with deadlines.
But, I hate down-time. As a child, summer was over for me after a few weeks: I had read all the books I wanted to check out for the summer, I biked, I played outdoors, I went swimming, I slept in late, I went camping, I had sleepovers. Now it was time to go back to school…which wouldn’t start for another two months.
As a teacher, Spring Break was hard me both this year and last. I got all I needed to do over the first half, so I could enjoy the second half, but never really did. Justin can attest–I get fidgety and nervous when I don’t have something to do or be working on.
Last summer, although I still had teacher paychecks coming in and we weren’t stretched for money, I decided to get a part-time job at a newly opened Subway. I wanted something to do (the fact that my husband was in school and at work all day during the summer helped this decision). I didn’t want to be home all day with nothing to work on.
This summer will be the first time I don’t work! My school year is done the first Friday of June and Rhys isn’t due until mid-July. I have slightly considered getting a part-time job, but who would hire a 8-month pregnant woman who would quit after she gave birth? No one.
I know after having Rhys, I’ll be busy getting accustomed to being a new mom. Everyone says I’ll be busy. But, I still have to wonder, will I be busy enough? What will it feel like to not have to be anywhere at all during the day? To not have a solid, sturdy schedule? To not have deadlines? How will I react when school starts back up again? I will be taking about 4 weeks maternity leave at the beginning of the school year. But, how stressed will I be? How much planning will I do at home?
With all the other uncertainties of this summer (moving, when Rhys will come, Justin getting a job, etc) how I will react to not working? I’ve never really considered myself a workaholic until this year. I don’t feel that I put my job over my family, but I do enjoy working. I like the feeling of being on a schedule and having something to do, deadlines to work towards, accountability. So, how am I, as a workaholic, going to treat this summer of many, many changes?
It’ll be interesting to see.