Each month it seems that I rock at my goals the first week and a half to two weeks. Then, I completely fail the rest of the month. It seems that way every time I do one of these monthly goals. But I don’t give up. I don’t stop making goals. Why. Because it always helps to be striving toward something. Having a goal helps build motivation. It helps give life purpose. It helps me to live more intentionally. And, I may fail (a lot). I’m not going to give myself grace, but I am going to acknowledge that I am mortal. I am human. I have weaknesses. A lot of them. And so, rather than try to make things more clear or stringent, I am going to go back to basics. I want to figure out my who, my how, and my why.
May got away from me. After a major plateau, and even a little hill in weight
los s gain, a bad bout of depression and anxiety spurred by a new birth control, a daughter who is struggling to sleep through the night, and a son who is potty trained completely only when he isn’t wearing underwear, I struggled. Bad. Exercising fell off the radar, as did any motivation and most of my participation in Church. Most days were spent on the couch, letting the Wii-U and TV reign supreme, ordering out for lunch, struggling to somewhat clean the house before Justin came home, falling behind in blogging and freelancing, and wth a frown on my face.
I’m embarrassed to say that I really didn’t get any of goals from May done. I fell into such a funk and I let the funk rule over me. After Memorial Day weekend, I was determined to start fresh–clean house, clean mind, on top of things, positive and healthy. That last all of Memorial Day. Then, I decided to start fresh on June 1st. Lasted only a day. I want to start fresh today, but the house isn’t clean, dishes aren’t done, none of my blog posts or freelancing is done for this week–I always seem to play catch up and never can stay ahead.
April was hard. Well, it wasn’t necessarily hard. It was sick and humdrum. Rhys got bronchitis, I got a really bad cold, Evelyn had an ear infection, and Justin has a bad sinus infection that is turning into an ear infection. Tot school was put on pause for quite a bit. There was a lot of TV and Wii-U. There was a lot of cleaning marathons. There was a lot food that shouldn’t have been eaten. Evelyn began a sleep regression.
But, it was also a good month. We went to Utah for Easter and to have Evelyn blessed. The weather has been nice, pretty much the same as March. Evelyn started scooting around. Rhys started adding verbs to his “sentences”. We started potty training and have been pretty successful. I got some new clothes that actually fit me well. We went to a Rangers game and Six Flags.
So, although goals may not have been focused on, there were many memories made–and that’s what is important.
March seemed to just blow on by. It is ridiculous how fast time is flying now that I have two children! Holy crap! It is officially Spring here in Texas…we’ve had 70-80* weather for almost a month now, with quite a few thunderstorms, a handful of tornado watches/warnings, and lots of shorts-wearing. I just hope April isn’t that much hotter than March!!
January was quite a whirlwind with having a newborn. My mom was with me a few weeks in December and January to help with Evelyn. And, I had a really hard time adjusting once she left. I’m actually currently in Utah–I have spent about 10 days back in Utah with my mom. This postpartum and the bowel issues Evelyn has been having and the transition to two really took a toll on me. So, although I did well on some goals this month, I didn’t do well on others.